With the coming of the new year, has come many new life changes. On December 22, 2016 the love of my life asked me to marry him, I am also about to graduate from nursing school in four months! All of these new progressions in my life has shown me how much I need to change my lifestyle. As a new nurse I am going to be lecturing my patients that eating healthy and exercise is key, how could any patient take me seriously if I am overweight. As a future wife and someday mother I want to be able to have energy for my family and to be an example health.
Another motivator for me to loss weight is for my wedding day. My dream is that when I go shopping for my wedding dress I am excited. As many women have experienced when shopping for cloths, you love them on the hanger but once you’re in the fitting room self hate and anger comes out because the dress that you pulled in a medium doesn’t fit and it hits you that you have graduated up to a bigger size. I want to feel comfortable and proud to walk down the aisle without feeling like i want the wedding to be over so i can stop embarrassing Chris and myself.
Going into a new bright future with my wonderful man I want him to be proud to have me. I am a tall woman at 5’11” so trying to feel delicate and cute has been something hard for me my whole life. In my mind all the cute attractive women were petite and light, which is the complete opposite of me. So obviously with that statement this journey is going to have to change not only my body but also mind in how I view what beauty is.
My future husband and I have been dating for 3 years now, Chris has been wonderful, he complimented me and made me feel so comfortable and loved; however by becoming comfortable I stop trying which led to 30+ pounds being gained. He’s never said or complained to me about it nor does he even seem to notice but I am able to tell, because i feel embarrassed for him when he introduces me as his girlfriend. We plan to get married in the spring of 2018, so that leaves me a year to gain a better understanding of my body and my mind. This will be a long hard and even ugly journey. I am tired of hiding my addiction to food and coddling it, so I’m going to put it all out on the line and be honest.